A lot of things have happened in my life in the past year, but that topic is a subject for a different blog entry. Suffice it to say that if those things hadn't unfolded the way they did, I probably wouldn't have the bandwidth to explore the talents I've recently discovered about myself.
First let me start by saying that of all the people in the world, I would have been the least likely person to actively pursue the path I am currently on. I am an atheist, a scientist, and a skeptic. I never believed in an afterlife, though I did hold firm that the matter and energy that comprise all beings continues to exist in some form after our Earth-bound bodies cease to exist. But that is based on science.
All of that being true, I have had experiences all my life that defied scientific explanation. As a kid I always got 'feelings' or 'vibes' about places. I 've had an out of body experience. I witnessed a spiritual attachment firsthand when I was at a sleepover camp as a girl scout. None of these things were easily explained, but I experienced them nonetheless. As an adult, those 'vibes' continued to grow louder. I got an incredibly heavy, uneasy feeling stepping foot inside the El Rancho Motel in Gallup New Mexico. I now know that the hotel is definitively haunted, and not just by benign spirits. Same uneasy feeling, albeit not as strong, when I visited some friends and they took me to a restaurant in downtown Chicago. The hair stands up on the back of my neck when I drive by places that I instinctively know are haunted.
I've also always been incredibly empathetic and intuitive, although it took me until recently to understand the extent of not only my sensitivity in this matter but just how much it impacts me on a daily basis. It really wasn't until I got an ADHD diagnosis and started medication that I could clearly see the porosity of my energetic boundaries.
But how did I go from having these unexplained experiences to knowing I'm a Medium? That is easy, though I'm still in a bit of disbelief about it all. Earlier in the fall, a family member passed rather suddenly. Later that night, hours after they passed I was contacted by them telepathically. I had no clue this was something that occurred until it was happening to me. I could visualize the 'thread' that connected us. I had a conversation with them. I was responding to their questions and statements verbally before my conscious brain could process what was happening. This person, now in spirit form, had an urgent message I was to deliver. It was so urgent that the spirit insisted I deliver the message immediately to the intended receiver, despite the fact that I was certain they were unavailable and wouldn't even receive the message until the morning. I argued with the spirit, but they were so insistent that I relented and delivered the message. Much to my surprise, the receiver was available and received the message immediately. No sooner had I hit "send" on the text message that the connection between myself and this family member disappeared. Clearly, I had served my purpose and they didn't need to continue the connection.
That was about two months ago. Since then, I have gone headfirst into a world that I had previously thought was full of woo-woo nonsense (see previous comment about being a skeptic). Now, I not only firmly understand (saying 'believing' would suggest that there is room to argue otherwise) that life exists after death, but that souls can communicate with those that are sensitive and open. I have since been contacted by several spirits that have crossed over. I've also had conversations with a few ghosts that have remained Earth-bound. Most of them have urgent messages of concern that need to be delivered to a receiver. In one case, a loved one came through to confirm their existence as a spirit guide for someone with whom I was conversing.
I'm still in a bit of disbelief about it all. There is no scientific explanation for my experiences. And me of all people, who despite my own personal experiences didn't believe in the existence of spirits or ghosts is now pursuing the path of becoming a professional medium. An incredibly gifted scientist friend said something to me about my telepathic conversation that resonated. They said something to the effect of, "There may never be a scientific explanation for your experiences, but to deny them is to deny your authentic experience in life." So here I am, stepping outside of my comfort zone and away from a career path that has stability to pursue a career that makes use of my newly discovered gift. I trust whatever comes next is meant to happen. Stay tuned!
