Synchronicity in Finding Your Purpose

This entry is going to be a bit longer than my typical entries, so bear with me. It's needed so that I can lay out everything that's come into alignment. 

It's been a few months since I realized that I was meant to do spiritual communication work. Even longer since I knew I was sensitive to energies around me. Once I realized that I had gifts, I stepped out of my skeptical atheist frame of mind and moved toward a more open one - learning about how to keep myself energetically clean; meditating; and actively seeking opportunities to expand my skills.

Beyond understanding that I had work to do, it wasn't clear what else I was supposed to be doing with my gifts. A few weeks ago, I had an incredibly intense dream. In the dream, I noticed humans marching in a line, two at a time, surrounded by dark figures. The figures were of creatures and humanoids of all different shapes and sizes. The humans didn't notice the dark figures, but I did. I knew the figures were controlling the humans and intended on enslaving them. As I spied these figures, I started to radiate a brilliant white light. The brighter I got, the more I started to levitate in the air. I rose into the air about 20 feet in height and emitted the brightest light I'd ever seen in all directions. Like a giant illuminating disco ball. As I floated there, radiating light, something started happening to the dark figures. They started to dissolve - almost as if they were composed of minuscule smoke particles - and dissipate. The dream was so striking in its realism and string of events that it seems like I just dreamed last night. However at the time it had no meaning to me, so I made note of it and nothing more. 

    Then, in a meditation last week, my spirit guides told me something that was simultaneously humbling, intimidating, and exciting. I was told that I was to use my gifts to 'neutralize' dark energy. It's not even been six months since I realized my gifts in the first place! I've only met a handful of other mediums and spirit/energy workers since then. I asked my spirit guides "How am I supposed to go about doing this? I don't have the foggiest idea." and was told "we will put the right people in front of you to learn," and "don't worry. You're not doing this work alone. There are others doing it too." I was also told that it will be achieved by integrating universal and Earth energies in my body and radiating it back out to neutralize the darkness. That message was damn near close to the dream that I had a few weeks ago. Synchronicity.

   Then on Thursday, a medium I've recently met, let's call them Maria, reached out. Maria said she had a message to deliver, and promised to fill me in on Friday morning. Due to schedule conflicts, our conversation didn't wind up happening until later that evening. In the mean time, mid-day on Friday as I was driving to the grocery store my spirit guides popped in and said "You have to go back to Forest Haven. You need to practice." Synchronicity.

    When I spoke with Maria on Friday evening, I was told that in addition to the medium work I am meant to do, "my old career was over," and this is what I am to do for a living now. It's a pull I've felt since I started working on refining my gifts, so it wasn't surprising that I was being delivered the message via another channel. As an aside, the whole turning it into a career thing baffles me, but I trust the information on how to make that happen will be delivered to me when the time is right. Additionally, there was one more message I was given that integrated everything I've been feeling, dreaming, and experiencing to this point. I was told that I am meant to 'move energies.' Synchronicity.

    ... Move energies... All of a sudden, all of the puzzle pieces fell into place. I had often asked myself and been asked by others, "Why was I sent to Forest Haven, where dark energies abound, for my very first paranormal investigation?" Synchronicity. As someone new to all of this, it seemed a bit risky. I've spoken with paranormal investigators who have said other mediums want absolutely nothing to do with Forest Haven after only doing a remote viewing, let alone stepping foot on property. Also, *why* was I told to go to specific locations at Forest Haven for my second visit where I knew there would be dark energies? Synchronicity.

    Then today during my second meditation of the day (not typical but my first one got cut short), I was pulled into a remote viewing session of Forest Haven. I say 'pulled' because I had no intention of going there myself. I found myself watching myself stand in front of the portal in the Holly building. I could feel the energy moving through my body as I focused on using my hand and heart chakras to work over the portal. I sat there, crown chakra burning, third eye chakra pinging like a homing beacon - feeling the sensations of doing the work. Watching myself as if I was having an out of body experience, but also seeing it as if I was standing right in front of the portal. This energy work was also keeping anything that happened to be inside the portal from coming out. Synchronicity.

  I sat, watched, concentrated, felt the energy move, and listened to my spirit guides tell me what to do ("open your crown chakra wider to let in more energy." "Focus"). I was being given instructions on what to do as I was doing it. I saw the back end of the portal, which happened to protrude into the building across the street from where I was, shrink and close up. The portal in front of me slowly closed as I focused the energy there. Once it closed, I was instructed to radiate my energy outward, beyond the building, to neutralize any dark energies that remained outside the portal. I saw the two buildings that had the portal from above, and a bubble of energy over both. "Hold it there. Concentrate." Finally the energetic work had been done and I was told I could relax while the energy dissipated. Once that was complete, I cleaned my chakras and siphoned off energies that weren't mine. A ton of dark energy came off of my person. 

 

    When I finally relaxed and came out of my meditation, an hour had passed. Shocked, I reached out to Maria to see if she could tap in and detect a portal where I knew there was one. I had no idea if my meditation was a practice session or I was astrally projected to Forest Haven to actually do the work! 

    Maria asked about my experience and was told that I had indeed astrally projected. I was led by AA Uriel, who worked through me to show me how the work to close the portal would be done as an exercise. What an incredible experience that was. Maria also said that there was a portal of light elsewhere on the property, and that I had led souls through it. Interestingly, on my last visit to Forest Haven, I sensed this portal - it was an intense amount of energy - nearby in the woods. I pointed it out to Tom and he felt it too. Tom had said that it wasn't a dark portal - the nature of light emanating from the portal was different. I love it when things validate like that!

    

     

Solo crossing assist

Earth-bound spirits stick around for a variety of reasons. Some died a traumatic, violent death. Others have a message they feel needs to be heard. Some are attached to a place and don't want to cross over into the spiritual realm. In some cases, spirits make a pact and stick around for some predetermined amount of time before they cross. For those that need to process their death or have a message that needs to be said, the bonds that hold them here are often quickly broken once that is accomplished.

Savage Mill Factory floor

 Such was the case with John S. I referenced meeting him in this earlier blog post. After he tried to follow me home, I promised I would return with help for him. My plan then was to meet Tom for lunch one day and have him assist John with crossing to the spiritual realm. However before that could happen, I made plans with another friend to meet for coffee. I knew that John would find me in the building again after I made my promise, so I decided to head over early and see if there was something I could do for him on my own. I wasn't quite sure how I was going to help John, especially if he was looking to cross into the spiritual realm. I figured I'd call on my spirit guides to assist if needed.

    It didn't take long for me to find John. He was hanging out down a different hallway than where I had met him prior, but I knew if I just followed my intuition, I'd find him. I learned a bit more about John on this visit. He died in an accident on the factory floor in 1898. He had a wife and three kids - two boys and a girl. His last name started with an S. Evidently the most important piece of information he needed to convey was that the Company that ran the Mill never paid his widow any funds that were due to her as a result of his death. As soon as John conveyed that information to me, a portal opened up about 5 feet from where I was sitting (side note - the energy from a spontaneous portal opening at that distance is intense!). 

Victorian-era boys clothing

I guess it's common for family members or other loved ones to come through the open portal from the other side to assist ghosts with their crossing. Tom says no spirit ever walks through the portal alone. John's children appeared through the portal as they would have to him at the time of his death. The two boys seemed close in age and resembled one another. They wore suspenders and knee length shorts. The little girl looked to be about 4. He met them briefly and they all walked back through the portal together. Compared to the previous two crossings I witnessed, this one happened quickly. A spontaneous appearance of a portal, brief meeting of passed family, a walk through the portal, and the portal shrinking away all happened within a matter of two minutes or less. 

    I'm glad I was able to assist John in his desire to cross into the spirit realm. I have since tried to look up any information about his accident at the mill. As you can imagine, information about the day to day goings on of the mill is scant. At least online. Maybe one of these days I'll see if I can chase down any info through county records or a historical society. 

Return to Forest Haven: The Crossing

When we visit Forest Haven, Tom and I get dropped off at the site by our paranormal investigator guide and wait for him to park his car and trek back across the street to meet us. The first time we visited, we said our prayers of protection while we waited on property. This prior visit, we prayed for protection in the car since we knew in advance that there were active dark entities on the property. Just like last time, Tom and I sensed many ghosts hanging about while we waited for our guide to get to us. It wasn't long before one of the ghosts named Muriel came up to Tom and held his arm. She wanted his help. Tom called upon the spirit guides to help this person cross over into the spirit world. 

    As he and Muriel were talking, I sensed a portal open up about 30 yards from us next to a tree. I told Tom this, and he said at the same time he could see Muriel's face light up with a bright white light, and there were twinkling stars in her eyes as they reflected the light coming from the portal. Muriel seemed hesitant at first to walk toward the portal, but she was guided by spirits to walk toward the portal and cross over. While the portal was open, at least a dozen other ghosts made the crossing. I could sense them coming from all over - some at a leisurely walk, some at a sprint (can ghosts sprint? lol). As the portal was getting ready to close, a few last stragglers made the crossing. That was only the second time I have 'witnessed' a portal opening and ghosts leaving the Earth to cross into the spirit realm. It's an incredibly powerful and moving thing to observe.

    Tom is blessed to be able to actually see into the spirit realm. I hope one day I will be able to see such things with my own eyes. But for now, I'm happy to be able to sense these things and 'see' them with my third eye. 

Forest Haven Part II: The Dichotomy that is the Holly Cottage

 The Holly Cottage at Forest Haven is fascinating. I want to paint a portrait of the feeling I got when I walked into the building. I'm told that very little is known about the history of Holly Cottage and the purpose it served. It was built in 1931, so there was plenty of residual energy to tap into. Immediately upon walking into the building I was hit with an overwhelming sense of joy and happiness. It was a strange sensation and seemed out of place given the dark history of the institution itself. 

    I immediately got a sense of children dancing, singing and playing. I believe I described it in the video as jubilant. My counterpart picked up that it seemed like it was also a place of learning - where students came to study. As we walked through and examined the room more carefully, we came across several old leather school portfolios, which validated that sense. They were worn and empty, but the buckles on the outside gave their purpose away. I got a sense that the children looked forward to visiting this place - it was part of their regular routine. Whether it was daily or weekly I couldn't discern. On some level it felt like both. I didn't sense any active entities in this building, but the rich residual energy was strong enough to paint this picture of this place of happiness and learning. Children coming and going. Laughing, playing, dancing, singing. Writing letters to their families from inside the walls. 

    Interestingly enough, on our way to the Holly building, my friend and I both sensed an entire group of ghost children running through the woods adjacent to the building, chasing one another and playing tag. It seemed out of place, because those woods were also adjacent to the wall of dark energy I described running into in my first post. But feeling what we felt in Holly, it now made more sense that the children spirits would stick to a place that brought them what was likely a rare occurrence of joy and happiness.

    The Holly building is shaped like an "L", and so when we turned the corner into the next room, the vibe was completely different. The ceiling had fallen. Debris from the building itself littered the floor. Moss grew on the floor of the building. We didn't spend a lot of time there, as we were headed toward the basement. 

    Now to the dichotomy. What was joyful and jubilant in the entrance room turned decidedly darker as I approached the stairway to the basement. Just like when I ran into the wall of dark energy before, I was stopped in my tracks. "Something doesn't want us down there." Came out of my mouth. Turns out I was right. At the time I didn't think whatever wished us to stay away was dark, but it didn't feel friendly either. We first walked through a section of the basement that felt benign. Our guide wondered at the purpose of the rooms in this part of the basement. He suggested they might be old jail cells, but the feeling down there was not one of imprisonment. My friend and I both agreed it was more like administrative or logistical in nature. 

    As we turned the corner into another section of the basement, our guide told us a story about how one of their friends walked over to a particular section of the room and stood motionless, as if he was in a trance. It took our guide and another buddy a few minutes to get this person to snap out of it. 

    It was dark. Really dark. As I approached the room I sensed a demon crouching in the corner of the room. I could see its outline. Black as black could be. I saw its sinewy muscles stretched taught over its frame. It had horns and long claws on its hands and feet. Thankfully the protections we had over us pushed this thing away. I really wouldn't want to get any closer to it than we already were. I absolutely refused to walk into that room until I had reinforced my protections. I knew whatever was in there (besides the demon) wasn't something to be messed with. As we walked into the room and through a wire fence, my counterpart whispered "It's a portal." I had mentioned that my friend can see into the spirit world, so they were able to clearly see this enormous dark portal in the wall in the corner. 

    After identifying the source of this dark energy, we discussed it with our guide. His buddy getting 'stuck' staring at the wall made a lot more sense now. I told our guide that that's what portals do - they suck you in and can put you in a trance. It also made sense that I didn't feel the demonic presence I had felt before I walked into the room. Our protection of light likely pushed this thing back into the portal and away from us. Thank goodness. My friend walked over and described the portal's opening. It was large. Very large. As high as the walls of the basement, wide, and incredibly deep. Cavernous. It pushed out beyond the walls as well and outside of the building. My spiritual friend hypothesizes that there is a labyrinth of connected portals all over the Forest Haven Campus. It would make a lot of sense. I know there's a portal somewhere in the woods, and another one in the Chapel. 

    What a very strange building indeed. Upstairs: joy, happiness. Downstairs: dark and foreboding. Our guide said "I'm surprised you couldn't sense it from upstairs." My friend and I both agreed. After all, the portal in the basement was directly under the room we first entered. Whether it was the protections we had covered ourselves in that served as a filter, or the residual happy, light energy from the room upstairs masked the darkness underneath, I couldn't say.