Scenes from a Past Life

This morning during meditation I wanted to practice my clairvoyance. So I asked my spirit guides to show me pictures. I sat quietly as images drifted in front of my vision: angel wings. a bird skull. faces of people. a cat. The longer I sat, the more things moved from vague, dark outlines of things to full color. After sitting like that for a bit, I asked my guides to show me scenes from a past life. Specifically I asked to see scenes from my life as a Druid, as I was told that was one of my past lives by a medium I recently met. 

What I saw was from a first-person perspective. I was shown the inside of a circular dwelling. The walls were crisscrossed with timber. In front of me was a flat mortar sitting on top of a rock. It had pine needles and berries in it. In the center of the room was a fire ring. I looked up and saw a hole in the middle of the ceiling for the smoke to escape. On one side was an arched doorway. The opening of the doorway was covered with animal hides. I was given the sense that the concoction in the mortar was going to be ground into a paste, which would then be applied to my face in preparation for a ceremony of some sort. 

    I found this quite intriguing. I searched for ancient Celtic dwellings and this was the summarized description: 

'Ancient Celtic dwellings, especially in Britain and Ireland, were predominantly circular roundhouses, built with timber frames, wattle-and-daub walls (woven saplings plastered with mud, clay, and straw/dung), and conical thatched roofs, featuring a central hearth for heating and cooking.'

Y'all. I know precisely zero about ancient Celtic culture. I had no idea this was the form of dwellings at the time. Once again I am blown away by the validation of what I'm being shown as a medium. 

A modern recreation of a Celtic roundhouse

The inside of a roundhouse. from Mark Fisher

The "Color" of Energy

Ok, bear with me for a moment. We all know that the electromagnetic spectrum comes in orders of magnitude of wavelengths (hello scientist in me coming out - good to see you old friend!). And we also have all grown up with the familiarity of ROYGBIV: the acronym for the colors of the visible light spectrum. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo, Violet for those whom might be unfamiliar. We've seen it in action whenever we are fortunate enough to spy a rainbow after a rainstorm or scattered in the spray of a hose. So let's add to that the familiar (at least in the US) color palate of the GenX youth: The Crayola 64 pack. These were our exposures to color early on in our lives before we grew into boring adults with muted pastels and washed out grays. For those of us with clairvoyance, energies have colors too!

    Before I started this journey, I knew I was sensitive to energies. I've had experiences throughout my life that defied explanation. From intuitively "knowing" about haunted places to having out of body experiences and witnessing a spiritual attachment, there have always been things that I saw and felt that were 'true' even if I couldn't explain them. Since I started this journey and have been studiously working to understand my role in the greater cosmic play, I have been working with energies. One of the books I picked up early in my discovery was "Basic Psychic Development" by John Friedlander and Gloria Hemsher. In it, the book describes working with your chakras and how to clear energies that aren't yours. 

    I have always been a person who works well in 3D visualizations. There's a reason I became a structural geologist. The 3D rendering of rock structures always came easily to me. An (completely misogynistic) early mentor in my college years told me I had "the GRE Scores of a man: high in logic, high in math, and low on verbal." (Don't get me started). Because of this ability of mine, the task of visualizing the exercises in this book took very little of my brain power. I was able to focus my thoughts on the energies that were mine and those that weren't. I could visualize siphoning off energies that didn't belong to me to return them to the Earth, that would then return them to those to whom they belonged if warranted. As others' energies were siphoned off of me, they came out in a myriad of colors. 

The most common energy colors that I perceive coming off of me are yellow, blue, and green. This isn't surprising. Most people who work in this realm recognize that these colors are associated with the solar plexus, throat, and heart chakras. They have to do with free will, voice, and the heart. Interestingly enough, the "roses" I visualize are often in these colors as well. Occasionally I'll get a red or pink rose indicating the root chakra. But more often than not the color of the rose I'm dealing with is related to where my own energetic blocks are forming. 

 

Hubble image of the Eagle Nebula.
Image Courtesy NASA

    Once in a while I will get colors of energy that stand out, either due to their rarity or their intensity. After I visited a venue that featured like-minded spiritual people, I siphoned off the most vivid colors I had ever seen. It was at that same venue that I encountered a medium who would later question how I was able to perform as a medium as I have. I saw bright, vivid green and the most intense purple that had ever crossed my path. I hypothesize that those of us who are gifted with the ability to see and communicate with the spirit world have more vivid auras than those who don't. 

    After the first occasion of remote viewing into Forest Haven, I siphoned off what I termed a "metric shit-ton" of black energy. Given what I sensed there and have since experienced first hand, I am not all that surprised. White energy makes a rare appearance. I think I've only seen it once in my visualizations.  

    This week, I experienced a new color: Brown. I won't get into what that meant to me and from whom it came, so I'll just leave it at this. When I asked AI to interpret what it meant, it was eerily accurate. The description of the meaning of brown energy is 100% aligned with my lived experience. I hope that remains the one and only time I have to siphon off brown energy. It was a bit triggering for me.

    As I delve deeper and deeper into this spiritual experience, I become increasingly aware of how much I still have to learn. I'm grateful that I was chosen to be on this path. It's incredibly challenging at times, but also really rewarding. I also have an increasing awareness over everything that I have overcome to be here. 

    

Tuning into my spirit guides' messages

I had a nice long meditation session this morning where I intentionally decided to practice my clairvoyance by receiving messages from my spirit guides. The images that came through were very abstract, which I understand is common when communicating with the spirit world. It was good practice for me to receive and then try to make meaning of what I was seeing. As I received images, I wrote them down. They seemingly had no connection, but I figured at some point it would make sense to me. The first images that came through were strange. I saw a flat line - like an EKG flat line. The next images that reminded me of elephants - a tube that resembled a twisty playground slide but also was reminiscent of an elephant trunk - and a tusk. Then I got this heavy feeling in my chest, which reminded me of the colloquial saying 'like an elephant on your chest.' When I put all those together, it had a very specific meaning - heart attack. 

    Other things came through as well. I saw a paperclip and was given the word "Buick." My brain did word association with the paperclip. It went paperclip -> clippy (yes *that clippy*) -> computers -> my grandfather. Between the association from paperclip to my grandfather and the connection of the Buick to my grandmother, I got the sense that spirit was trying to tell me something about her. I'd hate to think that she's going to have a heart attack but the association is too coincidental. She's 94 years old and not exactly in the best of health. I also was told to reach out to my uncle (my grandmother's son) this past Sunday to reconnect with him. These things put together are telling me that whatever is going to happen with her is likely to happen soon. I can't imagine otherwise why I would be receiving these messages now. Of course I am not sure what or if I should say to any of my family members. As we know in the spirit world, time isn't linear, so it's entirely possible that whatever is going to occur won't be until some time from now. If that's the case, then I would unnecessarily worry them all. Plus I think this message was just for me - I didn't get a sense that I should be running off to tell my family my grandmother is in imminent danger. 

    It was an interesting exercise, and one I'll likely employ on a more regular basis. Making sense of fragmented imagery is only going to strengthen my skills. 

Spiritual Interruptions - Messages from beyond the veil

I don't know that I'll ever get used to having a random spirit tap into my subconscious out of the blue. Of course most of those that come to me have a message that needs to be delivered urgently, and it's usually not a positive one. As an empath, it becomes a challenge to ensure I don't take on the emotions of either the message sender or the receiver. I'm merely a conduit, but when it involves someone I care about in my life (or even about myself) it becomes particularly tricky. As hard as it is to maintain those energetic boundaries, I am also met with an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Gratitude that I have been given this gift, and that the spirits that visit me trust me enough to not only translate but deliver their message to their loved ones.

  I've been visited several times in the past two months (since I had my awakening). Family members of two of my closest friends have come through, and I've been visited by my dad. That was weird, since I hadn't really spoken with him in 20 years or so. Each time, I apply due diligence to understand the message I'm being given. I ask the spirit for confirmation that I interpreted their message correctly, which is important especially when it's concerning news. I fully expect that these sorts of interruptions will continue as long as I continue to practice and strengthen my skills. It comes with the territory, but it's still a strange feeling. 

Uncovering my subconscious feelings through clairvoyance

 I have been doing a lot of research lately on how to further develop and fine-tune my skills as a person who can communicate with spirits. Part of that involves not only reading a ton of material, but also doing exercises working with energy, meditation, and developing my clairs. For those of you who may not be familiar with what a 'clair' is, it's the sense that allows a person to understand messages being sent to them from a spirit. The main clairs are: clairvoyance (clear seeing), clairaudience (clear hearing), clairsentience (clear feeling), claircognizance (clear knowing), and others, such as clairempathy, clairalience (clear smelling). Already my clairsentience, claircognizance, and clairempathy are fairly well developed. These senses are what have enabled me to receive messages. But I want to also develop my clairvoyance, as pictures can often tell much more than messages that sometimes come across as abstract. I have some clairvoyance; I'm able to tell what ghosts looked like in their human form. I can pick up on major features like height, hair color, and distinguishing features. But getting the whole picture also relies on picking up on context surrounding the subject. I know sensitive people who can see portals, for example. 

 

Image credit: Mindvalley blog

  One of the exercises that I've conducted to develop my clairvoyance involves visualizing my chakras. That exercise was so profound that I want to share it here. Chakras are the body's energy centers, and there are 7 of them. Each of the chakras have a color and an association. So for example it should come as no surprise that the heart chakra is associated with love. The short description of the exercise goes something like this: you ground and center yourself, and then one by one, ask which chakras wish to be visualized. During this exercise, you call up a chakra and sit with it until a picture forms in your mind that represents that chakra. I visualized five of my chakras during this exercise and the pictures I saw were absolutely breathtaking. I present them here in the order in which they were called. First I will describe the chakra (and its associated color), followed by the emotion I experienced, and then the image in my mind.  
    Solar Plexus (yellow): Associated with free will, self esteem, and confidence. I got a feeling of joy and happiness in this chakra. Slowly, an image developed in my mind of a field full of sunflowers. The field had soft rolling hills. The sky was a brilliant azure blue, the sun was blazing, and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. I could see the green stems of the sunflowers; the fully developed seeds in the center; a walking path to the right side of the field one could traverse and find themselves among the giants of the flower population. The joy and happiness exuded off of me and brought me to tears. It was overwhelming in the most incredible way. 
    3rd eye (indigo): Associated with intuition, imagination, and 'seeing beyond.' I was hit with a feeling of understanding. The 'seeing' in this chakra was a bit more abstract. The best way I can describe what I saw with this chakra was the ability to see energy. I saw spirit orbs and auras. To further practice my seeing (and to be fair this really is more about sensing than seeing), I imagined myself looking to see my own aura, and then that of my feline companions (yes, I know, but all living creatures have auras). My aura was green, and my cats had violet and yellow auras. It 'looks' a lot like an energy field surrounding the body. The stronger the aura, the further it radiates away from the central being.
    Heart (green): Associated with love and compassion, and boy did I feel it. Sitting quietly, I asked myself to picture what love looks like. Now before I get to what I saw I'd like to ask you dear reader, what image comes to mind when you ask yourself what love looks like? Go ahead and take a moment. Did you picture a loved one? A specific event in your life? Imagine your family? Something else? I thought my image would be that of my children. After all, I can't imagine a more unconditional love than that which I have for my kids. 
    Imagine my surprise when the image that I developed was that of the universe in its entirety! It was like looking at one of the Hubble Deep field images. The universe - vast, all encompassing - laid out in front of me. I was absolutely astounded. I've read that the driving force in the universe isn't gravity, it's love. And maybe on some level that influenced my image. But I can't deny the profound effect this had on me. I'm still ruminating on it, and likely will be for some time. 
    Root (red): Security, groundedness. I can't really say if I had a clear 'feeling' on this one, but the picture that developed in my mind was that of the elements. I first sensed water and Earth, and then slowly an image began to develop. I saw a landscape that encompassed all of the elements except fire. I stood atop a hill. In front of me I saw a rock outcrop. The hill was covered in short, greenish-silver grass. The wind blew gently on my face. Down below lay a valley with a meandering river. The hills on either side of the valley slowly graded down to a plain in the distance. The sun was about 20 degrees above the horizon, and occasionally masked by banks of clouds. It created a bluish-gray tint to the clouds, and the sky was various shades of blue. This landscape wasn't one I had ever witnessed with my own eyes. Whether it is an image of a real place on Earth, I cannot say, but the image was crystal clear and very real to me.
    Finally, my sacral chakra (orange) wanted in on the exercise. This chakra is typically associated with emotions, creativity, and sexuality. But interestingly enough what came through for me was a sense of knowledge and wisdom. I suppose it's fitting since I tend to live more in logic than emotion. I saw an infinite library. Bookshelves lined the wall for as far as the eye could see, and went up at least one story, if not two. I got a sense that this library in all its infinite expanse was ancient. Like it contained all of the collective knowledge of every human that has ever lived on Earth, and even knowledge beyond what we have come to understand as a species. 
    In front of me on a podium was an open book, old and worn. Bound in rich brown leather, its pages were yellowed and wrinkled with time. It was about the width and length of a laptop, but about 6 inches thick. I walked up to the book to see if I could read what was written on the pages. The writing was indiscriminate. I was told by spirit that the words written on the pages were not meant to be read to be understood, but sensed. I placed my hands on the pages to see if I could sense what was contained in this volume, but nothing came to me. I suspect I will be revisiting this place as my development continues, and perhaps as my senses evolve I will be able to gain access to the knowledge in that library. 
    I'm still digesting my experience from this exercise. I think what it was really doing was tapping deep into my subconscious. I'm pleased to know that deep down I feel joy and happiness; seek knowledge; feel grounded with the Earth, and have infinite love for everything that exists. Here I thought it was just going to be an exercise in creating pictures!