Y'all. I'm not going to lie. My life is unusual these days. Ever since I was contacted by a spirit, I have established a spiritual practice to ensure that I remain open to the gifts I've been given. On a daily basis I meditate, sense and clear my chakras, practice gratitude, and ask my spirit guides for guidance. But the strangest of all things happened to me today in meditation - astral projection.
Only once before in my life do I remember feeling the essence of my soul leave my body. I was a kid and had just visited Edgar Cayce's museum. Whatever practice I had conducted either at the museum or afterward left me open to sense this sort of projection. Some say that it happens on a nightly basis, but we don't remember it when we awaken. The experience I had as a kid occurred in my sleep. I awoke in the middle of the night to find myself hovering over my body. I also sensed the duality of my spirit: both masculine and feminine.
Today's experience was a little different - I was fully awake and aware of what was going on. In my daily meditation, I often experience the sensation of my conscious mind 'lifting,' but it never actually reached a point where it existed outside of my body. Well today it did. I was asking my spirit guides to help me work through my fear of instability. I don't have a job replacement yet and I worry on a daily basis about this. I started to cry. I realized the insecurity I was feeling was deeper than just 'I need a job.' It actually stemmed from a deep seated belief that I wasn't enough. As the tears started flowing, my consciousness literally floated out of my brain and expanded outside of my body. I could sense my body and feel the tears running down my cheeks, but everything felt small. Like I was detached from what was occurring inside my body. It was a little unsettling. I worried that I wasn't going to be able to 'get back in' to my body, and then what? But as I watched, the worry subsided and I just observed. My body shed the stress of the worry that I carry, and my consciousness watched it happen. As I sat there, my consciousness was met with an overwhelming sense of comfort. A full knowing that it will all work out.
I suppose this was my spirit guides' way of showing me that I was protected. The niggling thoughts about job security are still in my thinking mind, but I also have this awareness now that whatever it looks like, I will be supported. My logical brain knows that I'm capable of whatever I put my mind to. Goodness knows I've been through enough in my life that I've proven to myself time and time again that I can handle whatever comes my way. I thought that I had processed enough of my trauma that I had thoroughly and fundamentally squashed any doubts about that. Looks like I may have a bit more work to do there.
Now that I have experienced astral projection in my meditative practice, I fully expect that it will be a regular occurrence. I look forward to discovering more about myself through these experiences.
